These two words were all it took.
On June 7th, 2008 these words spoken by Seventh Day Slumber’s lead singer, Joseph, smacked me across the face and knocked me down to my knees (figuratively speaking, of course!). I was in the midst of freaking out because we had all been instructed to bow our heads and close our eyes while Joseph asks us a series of very personal questions. To make matters worse, I was up front with all the videographers who were going back and forth and flashing us all on the GIANTscreen, whether we wanted it or not. As he continued to ask his series of questions, my mind was racing. Should I really raise my hands? No one will see. No one will know if I’m lying. Then he said it. “I beg you guys tonight, humble yourselves!” It literally felt like a slap in the face! I started weeping! I realized that in that moment, I was not at all humble. I was so self-centered in the midst of this beautiful life-changing moment. And as I begin to realize that, I begin to realize all the areas in my life in which I am not as humble as I’ve always made myself out to be.
Last night, as Joseph chanted the phrase, “Humble Yourself” over and over, it took me back to that day. I rewound the last two and a half years in my head. It was ugly! Yes, I have come a LONG way since that day, but I still have a LONG way to go. We all do! And part of realizing that has to do with humbling yourself. You can’t assume that when you finally answer the call to be “saved” (I put that in quotes for a reason….another blog, for another time!), you’ll have everything figured out. You’ll have all the answers. You’ll be perfect. WRONG! When you finally answer that call to be “saved”, you simply become you. You become real. You become honest. You become the “you” that God created you to be!
After last night, I came home refreshed, renewed, and ready for a new chance at all the goals I’ve let slip through my hands these past few years.
I decided one thing I want to start doing is setting aside time each night before bed to reflect on my day. I needed some good reflection questions to guide me. I found hundreds of sites and wrote down the questions I felt pertained the most to what I wanted to get out of my reflection time. Then I came across a blog post containing reflection questions. But these weren’t all happy questions. I suddenly found myself skipping through most of them because I felt they were too deep and would reveal a lot of things I found ugly about myself. Then it hit me, those are the very questions I NEED to be asking myself! It’s the bad stuff in me that keeps me from having a full relationship with Jesus Christ. It was that very realization that led me to answer the altar call that day in 2008. I was done! I was done pretending I was a great person. I was done pretending I had everything together. I was done pretending I had been getting everything I needed from my fake relationship with Jesus Christ. I was done, and I AM done!
As we approach a new year, I’ve started to reflect on things I want to change. Things I want to do differently next year. Things I want to grow on. I kept saying, “When the new year starts I will…”
No! The time to make change is now! Don’t get trapped in thinking you need to take time to prepare ways to make a better life for yourself! Do it now. Humble yourself. Broken, hurting, confused, depressed, unsure, unhappy…give your life to Jesus Christ this very moment and let HIM take the time and fix you.
Humble yourself…and become the person God created you to be!
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